|Posted on June 9, 2017 at 3:00 AM|
Whether I am changing a job, a school, a city, a family, a tire, or the sheets, rarely do I find myself feeling perfectly cool, calm and collected. With change, comes stress. Maybe not a mountain of it, but there is some sort of response the body and the mind will likely produce when it is told that something in its norm will be different. Even though I am one who travels, and seems to be free spirited with a wanderlust soul, I am a creature of habit. I like things a certain way. I love to plan- in fact I used to have to plan to be spontaneous! I like things orderly and put in a tidy fashion before I can sit down and be productive. So, when things change in my world, it generally throws me for a loop. With that said, I have worked quite hard over the past decade to minimize that reaction, but still there are times when I feel so overwhelmed with life, I feel like I can't breathe, see, or think straight.
Which is pretty much where we enter my life now. Over the past 6 months, I decided to quit my job, leave Maui, move to Australia, get married to the most loving man I've ever known, be a stepmom to 2 beautiful little girls, start a yearlong visa application process- (which we were warned most couples broke up before the process was over), start a side business to help support myself and my new family, all while being apart from the man I love for the next 5 months while I work a waitressing job to pay off a personal loan. So, I think it's fair to say I have had a little change in my life lately. And while although I thought I was someone who could flow with the changing tides, I've come to realize I've bitten more off than I can chew at times.
Finding myself in the overwhelming mind/body reaction to change, is a major reason why I decided to do this cleanse. Not because I was looking for one more thing to add to the "change" list, but rather it is a change I am in full control of every step of the way. That it brings my focus back to me as a strong, powerful woman who has the power to change her health from the inside out. That I can do this.
It is a deeply personal way for me to play the witness to change on a physical level, as my body goes through the detoxification process. And while although I am physically uncomfortable at times, I know why. I know that it's because it is for the better. It's all part of the process, and it is through this process I can see the bigger picture broken down. I can use my positivity through this cleanse to remind me of my strength in the other larger changes happening in my life. If I can get through the uncomfortability here, then I can make it through the next few months being away from those I love. Make it through moving to a faraway land. Through a lengthy and trying visa process. Through getting married. Through making my new business venture successful. Through to this holding pattern to the next chapter of my life. With change comes discomfort, but that doesn't have to mean negativity. Change is inevitable and therefore, we must find a way to embrace it as we throw our head back to the wind, and laugh.